I know its been long since I've written the last post here. Blame it partly on the schedules ( I'd forewarned beforehand ), and blame it partially on the lack of will to sit straight before this computer and type even a string of words.... I have to admit that I myself am getting more disorientated by the day- losing focus, perseverance, determination, and aiming whatever I am undertaking.
Blame my profession, blame the system... and the blaming game begins again.
Yes, I shall iterate once more: ... its been very long since I've written the last post here (And I did not copy and paste the previous sentence lol) I tried entering a few words unto this white screen again, and somehow the sentences don't flow like how they used to... (And hence I just stated that I am losing focus and stuff). I know i used to grease a lot of stupid cheesy words in those last posts... and frankly speaking looking at some of them still kinda freaks me out a little. (then and again I had always called it thoughts of a deranged mind right?) What on earth had got into me to such madness? Then and again, why did I even set up this blog in the very first place?
Back to basics.
...Instead, as what the title suggests, I would like to keep this little space more as a rest haven- to pen down personal thoughts, and deranged ideas ( not too much I hope ); all within the comfort and security of my mind, and the ability to share them via this avenue of expression. I do not intend to commercialize or overrate it too- all but a simple avenue to express myself as who I truly am....
That was what I had written on the 28th of September 2007. Personal thoughts came aplenty after that, but I don't know too much about the deranged ideas part (unless you include those deranged stuff I kept contradicting myself in those above parenthesizes). But it was quite easy that ultimately, I had to step out of that shell I had entrenched myself in at that point of time- and to have one more avenue to express myself to the world. Those past pains, frustrations, worries, and fanaticisms (teenage angsts then I presume... unless you still think that 19 and 6 months still rounds down to a nine-teen); the road to move on by myself with little support no more than a pen, paper, and a whole lot of thinking to straighten out then.... Yes, Thoughts of A Deranged Mind is all of the above I had written in September. Looking back then, it was actually a lifesaver.
Today, I am glad I do not have no need for that anymore. Right now stuck in some ulu part of Singapore, confined for more than 71% of my time in a week, into a whole new lifestyle of madness. Playing C&C3 and Generals (Oh yeah... that same old-school game I crashed on the widescreen back in CJC), listening to Aqua and Backstreet Boys, and shaking like how your dad and mom would shake in a disco back in the 80's with those very retro bunkmates of mine. Two more socialism accounts were set up recently too- I still have no bloody clue what are they actually for (they tell me it'll be of good use to get chicks when I start going for university orientation camps), it looks I 'm all good to go to prepare for my future ahead.
Nevertheless, Thoughts of a Deranged Mind would still continue on, serving other purposes, yet nevertheless continuing to straighten future thoughts (should they continue being haphazard in orientation, and its likely because of Murphy's law...lol), to guide and correct, and to serve as an intimate, yet ever-truthful friend to tackle future challenges should they occur.
The blessed ability to at least string a couple of sentences together coherently (or maybe not at times), to a powerful tool of expression and regression-
Viva Spaces of A Deranged Mind, Viva forever.
As a personal side note to those reading this post, I hope you would too gain the most out of the blogs that you currently have....
